disconnect the dots

Its been 4 real days. 4 torturous days. the people i turned to for comfort just weren't there. so i waited. i waited for you and you weren't there. sometimes i wish you were just a normal kid so that you can talk to me all day long. yet im so bloody happy for you.
but i really really need you right now since there's nowhere else to go.
tomorrow's gonna suck big time and i know it.


today i broke down 4 times. twice in public.
what's wrong with me.

life has hit me hard. i'll just turn to God and i'll be fine.
This is a bump in the road, and i have learnt what's real among the fake.